Precious Moments

This week I have had some special moments that I will never forget! The other day, Garrett woke up from his nap early. I usually don't get him right when I hear that he is up, knowing that I will not have a free second until he lays back down for bed. This day, this time, I went in right when I heard him. He was crying, which is not his usual, so I wanted to make sure that he was okay. I am not sure what it was that was bothering him, but he was content to lay down on my lap for 10 minutes and cuddle. It was the most adorable thing. We both just cuddled each other and didn't say anything as I softly rubbed his back and he held on to me. This is something I will always remember....the feeling that I had at that moment....being his mom, the love that I have for him, how he has changed my life, the feeling that I know that I may not have many more moments like this where my son is content to just be close to me and rock back and forth.

Another precious moment is when Garrett holds me! Yes, holds me! The cute way he says, "Mama, sit right here!" as he slaps the seat next to him on the couch. The way that he wants me to slouch down on the couch right next to him so that he can put his arm around my neck and I lay my head on his shoulder as we watch his favorite movie.


Garrett does have moments when he is sooo mad. Moments that when I say NO and all he does his wail, throw his arms wildly about, cock his head back, and scream! Sometimes I am the target and get the whack....like a slap in the face. After Garrett does calm down, he is quick to say sorry and kiss it better. My heart melts as he looks at me so sweetly, with both of his tiny hands on each side of my face and softly says, "Mama....okay?"

One of Garrett's cutest moments of life happened recently in the car. Colin always asks Garrett if he wants to sing a song to help entertain him. He immediately said, "ALWAYS!" This is the song that I sing to him everyday at nap time. Well, this time, instead of me singing it, he sang it to me. Colin and I were both in tears as his cute little voice sang the simple words of the song, "I'll be loving you, always. With a love that's true, always!" I know that I will ALWAYS feel that way about Garrett and hope he will feel the same about me!

The last moment I want to share happened last night. The moment when my husband asked me what I wanted to do for fun with our tiny family. I wanted to do something different, something fun, something spontaneous. I immediately said, "play FREEZE dance!" It was so fun to blast music and dance together in our living room! It was cute to watch Garrett try to imitate his dad's dance moves and try to imitate his dad's frozen moves! I couldn't stop laughing! Moments like this need to happen more often in our house! Moments where we can have fun being together doing silly things!

I am grateful for all these moments.....and for taking a few moments right now to remember them and write them down so I won't forget them.

I have a saying hanging on my wall that says, "Life is not about the number of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breathe away." The last few weeks I have really been thinking about this. Some really close friends of mine just experienced one of those moments in your life that you know you know you will have to face, but don't know how you will do it. Their dad passed away. As I spoke on the phone with them about his final moments in this life, tears were streaming down my face. My friend talked about how peaceful it was and how amazing it was to be there as he took his last breaths. She talked about how her father was in pain and nervous about dying. She then explained how as he was lying there in his bed, he started to smile and she knew at that very moment that he saw Christ. WOW! What a spiritual experience.

So, as I have read my friends blogs about their dad passing away, and the impact he has had on their lives, it has caused me to reflect on my own life. How am I living my life? Am I being the best I can be? How is my family going to remember me after I am gone? I know that I am not perfect, but I hope that I can make the most of each moment that I have been given. I feel lucky to be alive after having almost died nine years ago when I was diagnosed with diabetes. There is a reason that I am still here and I want to make every moment count!